Thursday, January 21, 2010
In the Shadows
I always play defense. It makes for a tough skin. I'm cynical, pessimistic and in return I can't just sit back without wondering about all the details. "Why?" "Who?" "Agenda?" It's like I'm always waiting, I know "they" are lurking in the shadows waiting to get me and when they jump, I'm armed and ready. Sounds wise? Maybe? Not really. It all amounts to a lot of worry and contemplation for nothing. Sometimes I wish I could take that energy and thought and just learn to enjoy the moment instead of constantly preparing. I drew this today. Sums up my life. So who wins? I'm patiently awaiting that answer. Sometimes I wish I had someone to fight the snakes for me, or at least sympathize. Especially today. On the bright side, it was bright today. The sun paid a visit and I noticed at 6pm it was just setting. I live for longer days and warmth. In the meantime, I wage battles not worth waging (most of the time). For the love of Rikki Tikki Tavi....It has been claimed. T saw this piece and decided she had to have it. It now belongs on her door, along with her bloody knife. I'd say it's a small price to pay for my crocheted gun. After I made this post I took a nap. T woke me up about 9pm and I ran over to 'craft night' at Barb's. I was in quite the mood. I'm pretty sure they regretted inviting me considering all the ranting. I had 2 brownies and then all was right with the world. I should have had them prior to my visit. Oh well, they're good, understanding, friends. Tomorrow is Friday. I can't remember the last time I've felt so relieved that the weekend is nearing. No real plans, just my cup o' tea!